Tuesday, October 23, 2007

All is well.

My course mate was taken by how paradoxical
the other youths can be.
She has just been exposed.
She was shocked.

Ah, such poor thing.

But all is well.



Hectic week, silent blog.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Jack.

He had a hard time trying to convince me A is not everything.

But, B is! =) Heh.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Boxed Thoughts,

Found something I wrote ages ago:

I'LL STRIKE BEFORE THEE

I'm blind, I'm torn and I'm dead.
But before to the above, I'll strike before thee.
I'll run in the fields with the blue gazing sky.
I'll tear for the little things I want.
I shall smile and look upon thy absence.
I will laugh at the rewind memories.
I might fall and stumbled for your presence.
But I'd get up and stand on my shoes.
I'll be there to make an envious moon.
And laugh at the carved look.
Either way, fall or stand,
I will strike before thee.





Thursday, October 11, 2007

Syawal!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.
KEPADA;

KELUARGA KU TERSAYANG;
mama dan papa yang memberi ku kehidupan.
CINTAKU YANG SEORANG;
mr. jack pujaan hatiku.
RAKAN-RAKAN RAPATKU; cik paperbagged dan cik lipgloss.
RAKAN-RAKAN KU; yang setia membaca rintihan ku.
DAN SEMUA ORANG YANG MENYAMBUT LEMBARAN AIDILFITRI.

KEPADA RAKYAT MALAYSIA YANG SERBA DIVERSE; CUTI DATANG LAGI.
AMPUN MAAF DI PINTA.

SUSUNAN AYAT-AYAT KU MUNGKIN TIDAK BEGITU
MENYEDAPKAN HATI.
maaf zahir dan batin.













blog agak handy jugak.


Tuesday, October 09, 2007

When Endomembrane system does not work for me.

"And it could be that humanity will someday "'come of age,'"
outgrow religion and stand on its own as an autonomous adult."
Louis P. Pojman


SO FUCKING TRUE.

Tell me, how many are in the race holding tightly to the sacred teachings? And how many are in the race generated by worldly things but yet; are carrying portions of humanity with them while they are chasing life away?

Yes, my eyes are open. Not fully, but wide enough to see this other side of life approach. So don't worry dear heart, I'll pick my words carefully. If only I could talk to the Mastermind behind all these chaos; I would probably be laughing at all my questions.

Aku tak pernah carry the notion of humans equality atau pun Darwin's Evolutionary Theory. Tapi semakin lama aku fikir, semakin pantas teori-teori ini menuju ke kotak pemikiran ku. Aku statik; hanya mampu menunggu setinggi mana momentum yang akan terhasil.


Have a brilliant day.






Stupidity.

MID fucking TERM - BIO.

I was in class the other day-bobbling around the topic of substance abuse. Hah. Cikgu aku cakap, orang yang pernah consume E, I.Q dia akan turun. Then I thought to myself; "Hah, no wonder I can think better than you suckers." Tak, jangan marah aku sebab aku menghasilkan buah fikiran begitu. Bukan kehendak aku pun, its all pre-determined. (Please refer and ponder upon the issue of: Free-will and determinism).

Aku sedar aku tak lah sehebat mana kalau di ukur dengan kayu ukur yang subjektif. Dan untuk aku meluahkan buah fikiran yang begitu pessimis adalah sangat tidak wajar. Kita sama-sama manusia, sama-sama merangkak mengejar kehidupan.

Pengunjung-pengunjung blog Malaya Genius pernah bertikam lidah atas isu: Intelligence. And how one really should not measure, thus really; I.Q tests do not serve any purpose unless to get security in the finance department. But when you do not excel too, you would drown in this money-sucking era. Lets get real; berapa sangat lah yang survive without good qualification? A handful. Yang lain? Nyawa-nyawa ikan.

Aku tau. Aku pun setuju dengan notion pengalaman lebih berharga dari segala ijazah dan sijil yang wujud. But, be real, we aren't the ones setting and plotting all these unwritten rules in the bloody invisible book. Who are we really?

My kid brother often claimed that he's not clever and always saying that he's stupid. Ah, I know, it keeps me thinking. Maybe it was me that went wrong? Always comparing my paper qualifications with his. Or maybe it was the tension that mother drove us to where As' are the ones that matter? Or maybe it was the society that made my mother conform to the notion?

Ah, kalau kau tanya aku atau dia, tentu kami akan jawab; semua orang pun sebernanya bodoh. Dunia ni bodoh. Period.

Selamat malam wahai dunia yang buta lagi terpesong.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Atta' Girl.

Mothers are nagging machines.

Mine, burst like the mercun when I pass 10p.m curfew.

" And you don't know a single thing about the youth of today," bak kata Amy Macdonald.

Aku baru habis mid-term, jadi tunggulah masa aku untuk menghirup udara segar,
membeli-belah meniti Aidilfitri dan mungkin kita akan bertutur untuk meneruskan post yang seterusnya.

Feed your trash cans.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Education

My tok 'yang's view on education system and society pressure:


"Ugama nak dikejar, orang putih nak dikejar,
orang melayu pun nak dikejar.
Anak-anak kita macam tak bernyawa."

Wise and aged minds just enlighten me.