Sunday, March 18, 2007

I'm Shakin;

When is the last time you were actually afraid when your mother threat you?

No more outings if you pass this curfew ; grounded.

Let me tell you the differences between you and I;

When your parents screwed up ; you blame them.

Its not the way its suppose to be my dear friend, it will go on forever if it goes like that. No one is to blame. Maybe there is ; but putting the whole world on your parents shoulders is not a wise decision. Because when you tend to blame them, you would screw your life as well. Can't you see how will this be? No ending. You will get lost in this seductive world, you will tend to toast your bad doings to your parents failures. Well look through the thick glass ; if you were in their shoes, you would probably end up worse. Its even worse when you are a parent, I would laugh my bloody ass off if you fail to be a good parent, what more a great one.
Its like eating blizzard ice-cream in the car, and nobody cares about the mess you make.
Not having someone to tell you what not to do, is not the greatest thing at all. Look how the Finches and Augusten Burroughs led their lives. They even made a bloody hole in the kitchen's ceiling for God's sake. It eats you up inside faster than anything else.


OK, you may say its a blank post, and its not worth your bloody precious time reading, since I'm also blank.

If you're proud to be a Malaysian, you ought to read " Honk! If you're a Malaysian" by Lydia Teh. Looses up your tense nerves.

I've spent my hours in Borders, discovering books that great minds have written. Its such a good way to spend your long hours of the day, especially with your other half. When you're out of quarters and cash to purchase books, you spend your day in a bookstore. What more can you ask for? Then it hit me. If you ought to be a writer, an author etc; you've to own a BLOODY GREAT MIND. Let me tell you why, there are TONS of books in the two floors bookstore. That is not even EVERY book in the whole world. And there is a lot of book sections. OK maybe it wouldn't be that bad when you have narrow down the book genre. But, let me ask you; if you're in the Classic section, why would you choose Jane Austen over Charlotte Bronte?

Then, you would say, it all depends on the eye beholder. But let me tell you this; market strategy. You need to give a brilliant synopsis and eye catching book cover. Ignore the phrase ; don't judge a book by its cover. It only works on a great reader. I bet you're only a good one, just like me. Its just how the brain works. These nerves. The whole system. But when you're dealing with a great reader, you need to have a brilliant mind, thoughts, vocab etc. Because the great readers are your asset. They are the ones that would recommend you to the world, generations after generations. Look where Shakespeare is now. Not in his grave. OK maybe he is in his grave, all rot and in ashes form. But look where is he standing in this whole poem/play business. Way up at the top. His name is still among us. Even after the whole Victorian era. Why would you read someone who says "thou love by the book" in this hip and casual era? Then the Malaysians invented Manglish for nothing. You can simply say, "Skema-lah". Why take the whole twisted and complicated way when you can say it with one word? Its the art of it my dear readers.


<3

Always love.



You sat down next to me; like poetry to wine.




Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Aku berazam ;

Aku berazam nak tulis blog.

Good day my faithful readers. I know I've not been spilling beans into your bowl for ages. And probably you people out there are giving up on reading my blog page. The decision is all yours honey. One thing is for sure, I know I have a super loyal reader. So if you already have given up attempts reading my outdated blog, then why are you still reading this? So anyway, I do not know why suddenly I have this sudden urge to blog. Maybe its because its so outdated. I do not want you to think I've failed in pursue of my "writing career". Not pursuing the professional field anyway. Just an emergency door out of the real world. Heck, if I ought to pursue the professional field, I don't think I would make that far out. I got a bloody A2 for my Gce-O. But for the SPM level; A1. Boo. Not good enough.

Budak Melayu ini tak pandai dalam Bahasa Malaysia.

You know the art of socializing? It works amazingly. Unfortunately; I'm not a big fan to socialize. Maybe its just not in the genes. At least in my mother's blood. It gets really technical in the head. You know when you think real hard to start a topic. Like what's irrelevant and what's not. And I'm the person who chooses what to tell to strangers and to my closed pals. You just have to draw lines. Some times I understand why. But most of the time, I don't get it. When you did draw a line, then there's nothing left to discuss. Of course there is, about our nation and the world. But that's more like talking to an adult. Only a handful of the youngsters nowadays read the papers. Music topic? Totally not to be touched. I'm not interested in knowing youngsters yang terhegeh-hegeh konon dengar Brit Music. And this topic is only to be discussed with closed pals. Books? Certain people. Movies? I only watch certain movies. Very fussy - contradicts to my "not a big fuss" line. And if you outgrow your circle of friends, it would be rather difficult to keep everyone in the circle. You wouldn't have time to keep in touch and live at the same time. Specially now you're in college. Do you get the picture I'm trying to paint here? Lets say you're already in college, and you meet new closed friends then what happened to your old ones? Like losing the smoke you've exhaled few seconds ago. I mean, I'm sure little by little, your secrets would be out. Just like you did it back with your high school mates. And the circle goes on. Fades through time. Your secrets are probably scattered all over the world. So much for being a secret. Maybe its easier to outgrow your circle of friends, but don't lure them into this inner circle. Like what you did to your high school mates. Keep them at pace; these high school mates. They're the one that grew up with you anyway. I'm sure they're willing to see how your garden grows.
If you're against my theory or rather philosophy, or whatever you think I'm trying to sketch here; it's a free country. I didn't know socializing was hard. I thought it was as easy as going to the field and kick balls playing soccer with the neighborhood boys and probably a girl.

Its not the mens' world ; its ours too ladies.

That's all for now dear loyal readers, got to talk to Allah and send him some prayers.


Be merry.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

*(^&%&*_



"My name is Mukhsin;
You look very nice today."



Blank and malas mode.





Wednesday, March 07, 2007

SCHOOL'S OUT.

Let me enlighten my faithful readers (which by the way I thought I didn't have any ; mostly are my friends anyway. One way to get connected. ) with my a little bit hectic ( ok maybe as you go on, its not so hectic - not at all).

One thing is for sure ; I got to know when to put semicolons, commas and periods.

To my faithful readers ;

Its true when they said internet is a necessity. However, to my mother's eyes, internet is an addictive thing that keeps her daughter apart from her academics. Maybe her son too, soon. So anyway, I think its partially a necessity. On the other hand, my mother is right at some point. Because apparently, my life revolves around computers. And God knows why. Let me tell you, I wake up at 6 in the morning. Well 15 more minutes to 7 am to be exact. Then I talked to Allah. Then have my shower, make myself a mug of coffee + milk. And voila ; I'm in front of the computer. To certain extend; I think I need to get a life. But you know what? I do have a life. Its just that, I don't watch the boob tube - its another name for the TV in case you are thinking about that certain part. The boob tube name was given to the TV ages ago because it was in a shape of tube. Why boob? I'd have to look that part up. But now, the television sets are so flat you can even write on it. OK maybe not. But you certainly can do ridiculous stunts with your TV set, like Augusten Burroughs and the Finch family - where they watch the tilt TV set in the living room eating Dog biscuits. So anyway, my whole point is, i feel out of touch with the world for the past 3 days since I wasn't in tact with the internet because of the absence of my laptop in campus. Because apparently, I had to study for my finals.

White Lilies Island ;

Finals went pretty OK I guess. I know I screwed my Microeconomics; ECO - 140. Bloody ATC, AVC and AFC. 7 or less of marks are gone. But the MCQ was pretty OK. Why am I telling you this again? Its so irrelevant and you probably don't even care if I ace or flunk it. So anyway, finals are over and that leads to one thing : SCHOOL'S OUT. But how long? I don't even know whether I'm coming back for next semester for ADP. Mama wants me to go Australia instead of the States. Me? States States States! But I don't want to go States half-heartedly. So yeah, I don't know what now? Australia? Foundation in a neighborhood college then to Australia. States? ADP in NIC, 2009 for States? I might just end up in Malaysia for my degree. (ZZZZ) Whatever it is ; MONDAY THE 12TH OF MARCH 2007. So much for an island of white lilies.

OK its 17 minutes to 9am. And I'm going to get myself a chocolate sandwich and read about the Nation and the World. I'll keep you at pace with my thoughts later ; it's to stiff to be flexible right now.

Mr. Blue,
Don't hold your head so low
That you can't see the sky
Mr. Blue,
It ain't so long since you were flying high
Mr. Blue,
I told you that I love you
Please believe me




P/S : Joel, Shamini, I KNOW LAH MUKHSIN COMING OUT - TOMORROW OK!!!!! *SCREAMS + JUMPS + ER?*

SCHOOL'S OUT.

Let me enlighten my faithful readers (which by the way I thought I didn't have any ; mostly are my friends anyway. One way to get connected. ) with my a little bit hectic ( ok maybe as you go on, its not so hectic - not at all).

One thing is for sure ; I got to know when to put semicolons, commas and periods.

To my faithful readers ;

Its true when they said internet is a necessity. However, to my mother's eyes, internet is an addictive thing that keeps her daughter apart from her academics. Maybe her son too, soon. So anyway, I think its partially a necessity. On the other hand, my mother is right at some point. Because apparently, my life revolves around computers. And God knows why. Let me tell you, I wake up at 6 in the morning. Well 15 more minutes to 7 am to be exact. Then I talked to Allah. Then have my shower, make myself a mug of coffee + milk. And voila ; I'm in front of the computer. To certain extend; I think I need to get a life. But you know what? I do have a life. Its just that, I don't watch the boob tube - its another name for the TV in case you are thinking about that certain part. The boob tube name was given to the TV ages ago because it was in a shape of tube. Why boob? I'd have to look that part up. But now, the television sets are so flat you can even write on it. OK maybe not. But you certainly can do ridiculous stunts with your TV set, like Augusten Burroughs and the Finch family - where they watch the tilt TV set in the living room eating Dog biscuits. So anyway, my whole point is, i feel out of touch with the world for the past 3 days since I wasn't in tact with the internet because of the absence of my laptop in campus. Because apparently, I had to study for my finals.

White Lilies Island ;

Finals went pretty OK I guess. I know I screwed my Microeconomics; ECO - 140. Bloody ATC, AVC and AFC. 7 or less of marks are gone. But the MCQ was pretty OK. Why am I telling you this again? Its so irrelevant and you probably don't even care if I ace or flunk it. So anyway, finals are over and that leads to one thing : SCHOOL'S OUT. But how long? I don't even know whether I'm coming back for next semester for ADP. Mama wants me to go Australia instead of the States. Me? States States States! But I don't want to go States half-heartedly. So yeah, I don't know what now? Australia? Foundation in a neighborhood college then to Australia. States? ADP in NIC, 2009 for States? I might just end up in Malaysia for my degree. (ZZZZ) Whatever it is ; MONDAY THE 12TH OF MARCH 2007. So much for an island of white lilies.

OK its 17 minutes to 9am. And I'm going to get myself a chocolate sandwich and read about the Nation and the World. I'll keep you at pace with my thoughts later ; it's to stiff to be flexible right now. Cheers.


P/S : Joel, Shamini, I KNOW LAH MUKHSIN COMING OUT - TOMORROW OK!!!!! *SCREAMS + JUMPS + ER?*