Letters from Lightalley ;

The last time i got letters from the lightalley was ; years , ages ago. Lightalley? Wth is that? A place; where its there only when you make believe. Just like Neverland, or the North pole - where Mr. Santa toil with his faithful elves for the good kids. Am I in the verge to make believe ; or not? Lets just analyze.

Of puffy clouds from the lightalley ;

Bullshit. Clouds are puffy ; but they're not to stay. As comfortable and as soothing it is, it is just not to stay. Sure you can't have puffy clouds all day, rain is sure to come, and wet you up and then you would get all cranky and curse every car that passed you. But somehow you would know, that the comfortable, soothing feeling is plastered at the back of your mind, and you would always want that back, specially when you have a miserable day. But as hours pass, the rain is back and you would run from it, or take cover under the umbrella, but you know what they say ; "You can hide, but you can't run". It goes the same for us too. Bloody fate.
Or rather, we put where we are, believe its fate. I guess thats what happen when you're pretty much glued emotionally.

Immaturity ; quoted from Mr. "Lurza" : "Immaturity is something that ive figured out. Its not what others think. Its what you think. The way you defined maturity and the way people defined immaturity is somehow, different. as we all know la kan, this world is like so full of people. and we know each people are like, unique?; special?; and certainly have their own POV(point of view). Generally accepted, immaturity is the lack of interest to understood people's idea, and personal POV, and generally differentiate it." Well said; always have admired the deeper you. :) And sorry I quoted.

And somehow, the letters gave me an impression that its gonna be the end of the cycle. And I am not sure why, I am worried that I wouldn't be able to reach that dude from light alley. Yes. I think its decided ; that it is still pasted somewhere inside. And I swear, its making me worried as hell and I can even cry. And even though we can go on ages not to talking to each other; but once we do, its hard to end it. Bloody over-rated feeling. Then ; what else could it be? As much as I try to deny it. I can't lie to myself forever.

"We were so close.. yet, we were like on the verge of didnt know each other"
- Letter from the Light Alley.

Hell yes. And hell it still makes me wonder ; WHY. Even if you give me a million pages of answers and reasons ; I could never understand why. But lets just continue what we're doing now. And maybe we could just runaway. And here's brilliant song to this bloody over-rated feeling.

"Again and Again "
by Jewel.

Listen dear
I need you to hear.
I cannot disappear
I've tried again and again and again.

I know we said
That we'd give up
You said we'd had enough
Again and again and again.

But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine
All mine...

And if you will, I will
Try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show us the way
'Cause love is here to stay
Just look me in the eye
This is do or die
And I will stay in love
'Till you say enough
There is no giving in
There is no giving up in love.

Walk down the street
Stare at lots of things
The fast and steady streams
Again and again and again.

Do what I should
Try to stay busy
Your face is all I see
Again and again and again.

But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine
All mine...

And if you will, I will
Try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show us the way
'Cause love is here to stay
Just look me in the eye
This is do or die
And I will stay in love
'Till you say enough
There is no giving in
There is no giving up in love.

Like a movie I once saw
In the darkness I recall
Feeling the beauty and the pain
And when you call my name
Say you feel the same.

Cause' if you will, I will
Try to let it go
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show.

And if you will, I will
Try to let it go
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show us the way
'Cause love is here to stay
Just look me in the eye
This is do or die
And I will stay in love
'Til you say enough
There is no giving in
There is no giving up in love
In love, in love
We're in love

I cannot disappear...
I've tried again and again and again...

P/s ; Don't go disappearing again.