Monday, February 20, 2012

Avril dengan Cinta Hati :)

I know half the world is hyped out with Adele's winnings in the Grammys. You know what they say, when you don't have anything nice to say, best to keep my mouth shut.


But anyway, I have tons to write, but I'm just too lazy to write, and all I wanna say is that my boyfriend is the greatest. The greatest that we both decided to brace ourselves to go to Avril's concert despite the swarming upcoming fans (ticket pun free hehe). Just for old time's sakes. 10 years since I was 13 years old, when Avril came up with her first debut single. (Trust me, he was as big of a fan of Avril like I was!).

She was a huge part of my teenage years, and I stopped listening to her after Under My Skin. Pretty apt since I was already almost 18 when she came up with 'Girlfriend', and really I've moved on musically.

Perfect to the last moment when Avril closed her final day of her Black Star tour in Kuala Lumpur, with her first ever single, 'Complicated'. I swear I teared when she sang 'I'm With You' too.

My dream came true, to see Avril live. (Shut up lah I was 13 then, and the 13 year old me is still inside okay?) Cherry on top of the cake, when I got to do it with my soulmate! :D

(Yes yes, I just needed to post this up rather some thoughtful insights. Cut me some slacks!).

I guess when all the cool kids are busy listening to what I listened 4-5 years ago, it's time to start listening back what the uncool kids are listening to now! Haha. Kbye.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Kau Bilang!


Kau bilang

intelektual!


Tapi masih

berlegar di dalam kekosongan

dengan kekosongan.


Kau bilang

eksistensial!


Tapi masih hanya

celik;

bermata satu.


Kau bilang

kasual!


Hanyut dengan

perarusan ramai;

dengan Duniya semata.


Kau bilang;

Kau bilang;

Kau bilang!


Tapi pernah kau berhenti;

berpaling dan bertanya?



Nadrah Mustafa

Februari 16, 2012.


Saturday, February 11, 2012

Bagai punggok rindukan bulan.

Hi, I've succumbed into Consumerism.

Taken at a friend's place in Cantebury, UK
by Agfa Supersolina, 36mm ISO 100.

And I miss the UK, so bad.

Friday, February 03, 2012

Bukan ulasan Amerika, sebuah novel Ridhwan Saidi.


Berhasrat nak menulis tentang novel Ridhwan Saidi, Amerika terbitan Moka Mocha Ink. Tetapi tak pernah menulis apa-apa ulasan mahupun filem, buku, lagu atau apa sekali pun. Tak rasa berkemampuan atau arif tentang seni menulis apa lagi nak menulis ulasan! Tapi nak tulis juga, jadi, bare in mind, ni bukan ulasan.


Ini sebenarnya secara jujur, novel pertama Ridhwan Saidi yang saya baca dan telah langkah bendul novel sulungnya, Cekik. Kenapa? Saya baca bab 1 Cekik di laman web Fixi, lepas tu rasa macam akan jadi complicated dan runsing, so saya skip. Dan mungkin sebab masa tu tak cukup duit kot.

In my defense, saya telah mengikuti perkembangan kerja-kerja (filem dan tulisan) Ridhwan beberapa tahun yang lepas dan juga berkesempatan untuk bekerja dengan dia secara langsung dan tidak langsung.

Dan mungkin secara separa sedar, alasan utama saya teruja hendak membaca Amerika (walaupun lambat sebenarnya) adalah kerana saya tau secretly, Ridhwan telah menyelitkan beberapa kisah-kisah hidupnya dalam novel Amerika secara langsung, tidak langsung, fabricated atau tidak.

It's the kind of thing you'd get out of psychoanalysis, mungkin.

Seperti Freud katakan di dalam esei "Creative Writers and Day-Dreaming", penulis seolah memecahkan and memprojekkan identiti mereka kepada beberapa karakter di dalam fiksyen hasil penulisannya. Dan dari dulu, semasa saya mula-mula mengikuti Binfilem, saya hairan kenapa ada 4 figura serupa karakter Simpsons? Dan mungkin, ya atau tidak, menerusi Amerika, saya tebak adalah 2 kawan rapatnya termasuk Aneeta.

Separuh jalan membaca Amerika mengikut masa relatif, tiba-tiba dipaksa masuk ke kisah silam pula. Pengimbasan dan pengenalan kisah kehidupan yang lepas menerusi manipulasi plot dan relatif masa.

Kadang-kadang ada rasa draggy sebab banyak sangat filsafat yang diselitkan, tetapi kepala aku seolah mencari alasan untuk Amerika dan mengingatkan aku kembali tentang novel kegemaran aku, Sophie's World oleh Jostein Gardner. Tak kata comparable, tetapi mungkin seiras kerana ideologi-ideologi dan falsafah-falsafah yang diselitkan. Dan mungkin Amerika tidak memberikan aku vibe kanak-kanak sangat kot, dan lebih kepada pembaca yang sudah arif tentang kau-tau-apa.

Dan I particularly like the twist at the end, mungkin sebab interpretasi aku yang salah kot? Atau mungkin kerana lipas besar made me wished the book ended quickly, but Ridhwan did justice at the end. Teringat Beatles consistently, entah mengapa. Mungkin sebab Across the Universe juga.

The thing about Amerika or any other Ridhwan's work is that, it is like a riddle. You've got to look deeper and relate one piece to another, walaupun dari sumber fiksyen atau dunia realiti. You'd see that he's been really personal with his works, carefully picking up what should be included and what should be fabricated, and to what extent.

Pernah merasakan, Ridhwan perlukan psikoanalisi juga, in good ways.