Wednesday, July 25, 2007


.. And Beautiful.

"I've been watching your world from afar, I've been trying to be where you are, and I've been secretly falling apart. To me, you're strange and you're beautiful. You'll be so perfect to me but you just can't see. You turn every head but you don't see me. I've put a spell on you; you fall asleep when I put a spell on you." AQUALUNG.

love at first sight.

Yes I know I've approached this topic again and again, but trust me, it never dries among the people. However, again I am going to question about love at first sight. And personally, I've never believed it this. But when you said infatuation, oh perhaps attracted physically maybe yes. But to fall in love right that instant, maybe most probably seems not logical to me. Of course, love at first sight seems so ideal and yes, I might say that you might have fallen for someone at the first glimpse. ( =D ) Well, if you're a sucker for this kind of stuff or perhaps on the subject love; I suggest you to press this link below. It's some kind of a "indie" short film. WORTH WATCHING, for me at least.


the boy and the girl.


"What's so wrong with being happy?
Kudos to those who see through sickness."
Brandon Bloyd.

With all my might I wish to greet you with lovely greetings and welcome you to the world once again. THE WORLD AND YOU. Excuse me for approaching the same old issue of the reality and yourself. By posting these, I hope it may help me generate my brain, mind or whatever for this coming final paper. Also, I hope it may some sort of enlightenment for you.

The ancient Greek philosopher, Plato has concluded that in this world, or perhaps reality, there are 2 worlds; the visible world that is constantly changing and the invisible world that is permanent. What are these two worlds you ask?

Well, the visible world is the world that lay befor
e your eyes, the one that you thought was filled with joy and happiness and colors that are bright. Why did Plato suggested that the world is constantly changing? You see, compare now and the days during Plato's time? Civilization. So then civilization is where people try to outgrow the people before them. Sure it gives the same basic idea by your mind which is the invisible world that is permanent, but these form of civilization that has already been implied to the visible world change.

If you can recall your Islamic history, before the Prophet Mohammad S.A.W came, the people was in a "jahiliah" time where men are in a "women feast", girls are buried alive, and drink alcohol like fishes drink water. So then the Islamic civilization came, teaching people the right way of living their lives; women are not sex slaves nor toys, girls are precious and alcohol distorts you sanity. Yes it is true once Islam was such a holy religion. Of course I believe it is still a holy one, and anyone who was or is born a Muslim is very lucky. But as civilization grew from another era to another, it seems like we're going back to where we have started. But the idea of civilization is to be better than the people before us. So tell me, how can this be civilization?

Sure you might say; "This is the modern era, stop
being so ancient". You might also say that the form of civilization has changed to adapt to the modern culture which is driven by the art, politics, society, economy etc. Thus, we have a modern civilization where sky-scrappers are the replacement to the Orde Kosmos as a symbol of pride or so wealth. And that is exactly my point; the invisible world
(the mind) still promotes the same basic idea of a subject, however, the visible world betrays the unseen world by coloring a whole new form modified from the basic idea. Seems like; lembu punya susu, sapi yang dapat nama.

Plato laid on the platter the idea that humans are consist of three main divisions; reason, appetite (desires) and emotions (spirit). Humans often reason, but might be wise or the other way round. Desires are to be fulfilled to achieve a satisfied state. And emotions often distort or trigg
ers rationality.

Lets take a man who is thirsty and there is a glass of poison lay in front of him. For obvious reason, the man reason not to drink, thu
s opposing his desire for it is a poison glass. So now isn't it clear that there are at least 2 main divisions of human? Now lets say a wife who has just been betrayed by the loving husband, thus she's going through angst and the desire to avenge her husband is sky high. She then commits homicide which later distorts her rational reasoning.

Who or what drives all these human activity? Is it the body or the mind? If you ask me, agreeing with Plato, it is the mind that drives the human activity and the body is nothing more like a device to channel its ever constant ideas. It is like the electricity that drives electrical goods. Or like the mother supporting the baby in the womb. The ultimate nature of human is the mind and the mind itself. Without the mind (soul), ideas are not generated, and humans just do not function. Like laying down in the Intensive Care Unit in a coma. And the visible world is nothing more than a product of the mind.

Between me and Allah S.W.T.

The enlightenment.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

I know I believe this kind of craps are totally not worth doing. However, I'm bored up to my toes, and philosophy is just running in circles.

a) Bold the statements that are true to you.
b) Italicize the statements that you WISH are true.
c) Leave the fibs alone.

Then, stab 3 people to do the same test...

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally from last year.
9) I curse.
10) I’m totally smart.
11) I’ve broken someone’s bones.
12) I’m paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I am always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone.
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I don't hate anyone.
35) I’m a pretty good dancer.
36) I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone.
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I’ve rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
46) I'm not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friends’ significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park Movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I’m obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time. 62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.

66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goal & dream.
69) I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I can’t live without black eyeliner.
79) I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.

84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I’ve written in.
86) I can’t stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I’m an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.

P/s: Updates? Much later I reckon, after Friday most prolly, finals!

The loyal friend.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer

Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words

What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time


One of the good tunes on my list. Cheers.