Saturday, March 31, 2012

Deliberate harm to the soul.

Like pouring emptiness into a cup once filled with tranquility.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Ghuraba (Strangers).

If every creation has its creator,
every writing its author,
every plan its plotter,
every design its designer,

- then what about you,
my young traveller?

Yang pilu.

Taken by Agfa Supersolina, at Pulau Pangkor
aku ketandusan inspirasi.

Dengan kebisuan,
sunyi sepi.

aku hanyut.

Dengan kerenah kehidupan,
kau berpaut.

kelu lidah aku.

Dengan gelap gelita,
dan jalan berliku.


kerana seusia dulu,
inspirasi aku,

Yang diam terpaku.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Rindu zaman pakai Creative ZEN instead of iPod Nano. Zaman dengar Regina Spektor dan Nerina Pallot. Zaman naik KTM dari Nilai balik Subang Jaya sambil baca Orhan Pamuk. Dalam kata lain, rindu zaman muda. Zaman baru masuk pengajian tinggi.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Swallowed in the Sea

the wide sea?


like our souls
intertwined in
a realm, we fear to


like these recurrent
thoughts of
unspoken possibilities.

Remember the
water current?


like our young
hearts, eager
to discover.


like our subtle
words embedded with
secret affections.

Remember the
wonders they bring?


like the transcendental
space of day and night,
at dusk and dawn.


like a wrath
sent down to
remind us all.

But --
did we sink or swim?

Or were we
swallowed in the

Thursday, March 15, 2012

A Dangerous Method. Versi cincai dan malas.

Alas, I have watched the long-awaited film. Ever since I was a student last year, reading Freud and other psychoanalytic scholars. (Show off pulak dia ni).

MasyaAllah. I love the details they did in this film! Even Freud's study room and the COUCH! Reminds me of my visit to Freud's London home with my best friend last summer. Same exact artifacts in his room. Brilliantly eerie.

An indeed, a dangerous method. Something so intimate when one's inner most repressed thoughts and feelings are shared between two colliding souls. If only I could start taking patients as how they did, "I heard you are taking patients now?". Now wanna find volunteer clients also hard (or rather not so confident with my lacking clinical background).

But right now, I'm not quite sure of psychoanalysis. I mean, psychodynamic quite possibly. But psychoanalysis? I'd have to refer to my personal analyst.

Monday, March 05, 2012

Alex Turner.

I miss London.