Sunday, October 31, 2010

Untuk Jiwaku yang buta.

Dari mulanya ingatan,

ku sangka dunia bercahaya.

Indah merata-rata.

Ku sangka,

celik penglihatan ku.

Dilihatnya pelbagai ragam.

Ku sangka,

celik akal minda.


hanya untuk jiwaku yang buta.

Hanya di permukaan;

tidak diselami mendalam.

Adakah yang ditampakkan pada ku kini,

seiring dengan kau?

Kebenaran, yang memanggil.

Divine Intervention.

Untuk jiwaku yang buta.
For my blinded Soul.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

One Day Like This.

The covered women and a pinch of Feminism.

Again, I'm assured that all of these were orderly planned by the Divine One. Alhamdulillah.

Thursday, October 21, 2010


That shit did not last.
So just fucking move on!

Dude, kalau kau sibuk dengar your phony playlist and don't listen to Nicestupidplayground, it's a fucking shame. This is Malaysia's 90s.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I'm better when I don't think, seems to get me through.

(Above the latest version, and below the one before).

Hello. Since 2010 seems like the year where there all the new albums are coming up, including I Am Kloot amongst others such as Manic Street Preachers, Gorillaz and Interpol.

I absolutely love this video by I Am Kloot because it is very minimal yet heavy and rich with emotion. I suppose they re-made the video. Enjoy!

Oh btw, one of the reasons Freud is one of the geniuses is because he tells of defense mechanism. Regression for example, where one retreats or regresses to a phase of life where life was more pleasant and free from frustration and anxiety. Also, the state of denial. I mean, come on, get a fucking grip. Pun fucking intended.

Friday, October 15, 2010


Tolonglah, lagu masyuk gila kot.

Oasis should have never disbanded, (yet) again. I mean, it's the Gallagher brothers! Besok pergi town, confirm ada temptation nak masuk HMV, which then may lead to wanting to spend 10 quid on two albums. Haih.

"I'm gonna start a revolution from my bed," sings Liam.

I was asked at dinner the night before on what my aspirations were to get myself at this particular point of my life. If you ask me, it was a pretty heavy topic to discuss over tea with 5 friends after a long day. A heavy topic in which I wouldn't lay down every details of it. It was the choice between a generalise answer or vice versa. But I figured this wasn't a therapy session but a conversation 'normal' people had.

Honestly, I was digging my own mind to answer. I don't know why, but every other time one asks me why this and not anything else, I go blank. Kind of like doing an assessment. A bit of a Hawthorne effect. It's not that I am not in touch with my sense of aspiration. I suppose it is difficult to paint a picture for another without missing every details of the context without misleading them into a different interpretation. Well, nobody said it was easy.

So I subtly dodged the question by tempting them into how one's being could meet life's abnormalities like Schizophrenia or Bipolar Disorder. I cheated.

Today in class, we talked about Aspirations. The kind of why we individuals wanted to be where we were sitting right that particular moment. There wasn't a "one size fits all" situation, but there were similarities. The kind of innate motivation that brought us there on that particular day.

Wasn't it Rumi who said, "The lamps are different, but the light is the same"? It's exactly that. Notice "the Light", and if you like, al-Noor, surah 24 in the Holy Quran.

I could not help but laughed in appreciation. It is indeed perfect how the cosmos work. We had similar drives, the urge of wanting to shine light to our Selves as well as to other people and their Selves. Searching a sense of Self and meaning. Facilitating one's personal growth and development. We were somewhat damaged at some points of our lives. We were going to discover the undiscovered depths on one's psyche. Brought by our own self-awareness, we want to experience somesort of therapy.

We want to get a grasp of Life.

I am content, Alhamdulillah.

(I've got to come up with better titles).

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Who was that said that Love conquers all?

One of the motives to go as far as the Northern Hemisphere, was to experience my favourite musicians live. But apparently, the upcoming gigs of Camera Obscura is in Athens.

And I got a stack of books, I didn't read a thing. Maybe I'm just sitting, waiting for the birds to sing.

Pun intended.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Northern Hemisphere.

(Pictures taken by lomo camera)

They say, when you have tasted Perfection, Life would be hard. Have you heard?

All I needed was a little kick and push. A beautifully written song. A piece of poetry. A well-composed musing.

Suddenly, my attainable blue flower is within reach again.

And every time the perspective comes,

you are the bluest light.