Deliberate harm to the soul.

Like pouring emptiness into a cup once filled with tranquility.

Ghuraba (Strangers).

If every creation has its creator,

every writing its author,

every plan its plotter,

every design its designer,

- then what about you,

my young traveller?

Yang pilu.

Taken by Agfa Supersolina, at Pulau Pangkor

Katakan,

aku ketandusan inspirasi.

Dengan kebisuan,

sunyi sepi.

Katakan,

aku hanyut.

Dengan kerenah kehidupan,

kau berpaut.

Katakan,

kelu lidah aku.

Dengan gelap gelita,

dan jalan berliku.

Katakan,

kerana seusia dulu,

inspirasi aku,

kamu.

Yang diam terpaku.

Rindu zaman pakai Creative ZEN instead of iPod Nano. Zaman dengar Regina Spektor dan Nerina Pallot. Zaman naik KTM dari Nilai balik Subang Jaya sambil baca Orhan Pamuk. Dalam kata lain, rindu zaman muda. Zaman baru masuk pengajian tinggi.

Swallowed in the Sea

Remember

the wide sea?

Deep;

like our souls

intertwined in

a realm, we fear to

discover.

Free;

like these recurrent

thoughts of

unspoken possibilities.

Remember the

water current?

Wild;

like our young

hearts, eager

to discover.

Violent;

like our subtle

words embedded with

secret affections.

Remember the

wonders they bring?

Tranquil;

like the transcendental

space of day and night,

at dusk and dawn.

Destructive;

like a wrath

sent down to

remind us all.

But --

did we sink or swim?

Or were we

swallowed in the

sea.

A Dangerous Method. Versi cincai dan malas.

Alas, I have watched the long-awaited film. Ever since I was a student last year, reading Freud and other psychoanalytic scholars. (Show off pulak dia ni).

MasyaAllah. I love the details they did in this film! Even Freud's study room and the COUCH! Reminds me of my visit to Freud's London home with my best friend last summer. Same exact artifacts in his room. Brilliantly eerie.

An indeed, a dangerous method. Something so intimate when one's inner most repressed thoughts and feelings are shared between two colliding souls. If only I could start taking patients as how they did, "I heard you are taking patients now?". Now wanna find volunteer clients also hard (or rather not so confident with my lacking clinical background).

But right now, I'm not quite sure of psychoanalysis. I mean, psychodynamic quite possibly. But psychoanalysis? I'd have to refer to my personal analyst.

Alex Turner.

I miss London.