Panas lah yah Tuhan ku.

I only write on love, changes, uh apa lagi? Macam tu je.

God I need a fucking muse.

If you're reading this, and your friggin' air cond is on. Can you friggin' shut it off?

Because its so friggin' hot here. And I know that you're hot too. But turning on your friggin' air conditioner does not help you neither me what more the whole world in the long term.

Unless your air conditioner says CFC free, then boleh lah berdansa dalam bilik sejuk.

I still need a fucking muse.

O no, not again,

Yer, tak boleh tido.
Besok dah lah paper paling susah.
Siot.

Isn't it ridiculous when one can't sleep,
they need to tell to the whole world?

Haha.

It's okay, it's proven that I'm ridiculous.
And I'm hungry.

And people get ridiculous at times kan?

Who friggin' care about the norms lah?
GTH.

If you see what I see,

Someone said that blogging is utterly nuisance. From A to Z.
That it was conforming to the world. And that was bad.
Maybe it is because of Bowlby's insecure-ambivalent. Since it involves me and all.
So who do we blame here? Freud? Bowlby? Oh wait, the square one? Or maybe the self?

Anyway, my actual drive was to blabber about this whole thing I'm doing. Did I tell you I think I'm doing the right thing?

Look at the crazy people out there! And the whole situation you have to handle?

God.

It makes it easier when you tackle them from what you've learned. I mean, you know how to manipulate the core and what not.

I guess it all depends on how you approach the subject lah kan. I mean, if you see it as what it is, being just on the surface and all, its dead boring. Like reading Romeo and Juliet, and not wanting to be in love. Or, like doing physics without a visual idea. Its there, just.

Well, I see it as wonders! Dude, I'm telling you, if you know this thing like at the back of your palm hand, you could do serious wonders.

You could write a fucking brilliant book.

You could direct a superb movie.

You could draw an abstract painting.

You could capture a friggin' picture.

You could write an all-time favorite song.

Or maybe be the next Plato.

And the list goes on.

It is all down to its best, the world and the people.

"And if you see what I see, then say it after me."
Magnet, Everything's perfect.

Dah aku nak tido, selamat malam.
Okay tak, golek-golek belek stats.

Failure trials of studying and sleeping,

"Isn't that what college is all about?
It's to challenge your beliefs."
Greek episode 13

Go figure folks.

Freedom, freedom!

Baby's little smile.


To my witty-cute-adorable-super noisy niece, Damia Wafa
God I miss you lah budak!

My cousin sister sent a MMS of her daughter's "artistic" drawing.
Pretty much for a 2 year old eh?

I replied, "Freedom of expression kak!"

Sejauh mana hak kebebasan anda untuk meluahkan ekspresi genuine yang meluak-luak di dalam dada anda?

Not so much really.

I mean, you could something so outrageous that make your neighbor chew his own head off or probably laugh like a friggin baboon with fleas up in his ass. Okay, maybe not.

You could even say something so completely absurd, but somehow make total sense to your neighbor.

I mean, hey, freedom of expression kan wei! Who cares what people think? You say it, if they don't like it, then we're not on the same page. Besides, their interpretation might differ. So who gives a fish.

The Perlembagaan stated something about not to say something "sensitive" (Religion, Hak Melayu etc etc.) Dude, FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION.

Tapi kan, kalau nak di bandingkan dengan the oh-so-great America, things are different I'm afraid.

But again, I'm not so sure about it lah kan, I just read it in this text book I'm suppose to study on it since tomorrow is the paper and all.

Anyways, the American constitution clearly stated on civil rights and the freedom of expression.

The only thing that's different is, here, we could recite doa early in the morning during the queue (okay, I'm not condemning okay, peace peace!) but there, NO BIBLE CITING in public schools.

I remember being in the line in school, following word by word the kid on the balcony reciting the doa.

So, I tak tau lah, maybe its to protect the good of us also. I mean, being so general about agama and all.

I grew up with gila straight thinking, maybe stereotype even, that Islam strictly restrict pergaulan bebas and such. And them, on the other hand, could do whatever they liked. Tak ada agama they say. Well sorry it might offend certain readers.

Anyway, I came to realize, that whoever set that stupid notion is growing up in the wrong idea man. Religions promote, respect. Which means, who cares what the other religion says, respect je ah oh, gila bodoh nak condemn. I swear they're retards.

The flaw here is, how come, there, bible reciting is strictly prohibited whereas here, doa recitals are well, acceptable? But both certainly carry the notion of freedom of expressions in their respective constitutions.

Know what? Maybe I'm just being half empty, I mean, if they could tolerate the doa recitals, there is a beauty in it right? Tolerance.

But on the other hand, what about equality?

SHIT I'm confusing myself again.



Kakak Lucey is right, I've to stop my rojak language.