Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Signal fire.

"The perfect words never crossed my mind, cause there was nothing in there but you. I felt every ounce of me screaming out, but the sound was trapped deep in me. All I wanted just sped right past me, while I was rooted fast to the earth. I could be stuck here for a thousand years, without your arms to drag me out.

There you are standing right in front of me. There you are standing right in front of me. All this fear falls away to leave me naked. Hold me close, cause I need you to guide me to safety.

No, I don't want to wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath, you are my signal fire. The only resolution and the only joy, is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.

There you are standing right in front of me. There you are standing right in front of me. All this fear falls away to leave me naked. Hold me close, cause I need you to guide me to safety.


No, I don't want to wait forever
."

i. just. need. the. fucking. missing. piece.

But what? It is not psychology, it is not food, it is not ice cream, it is not friends, it is not conversations, it is not an outing, it is not movies, it is not TV series, not songs, not being online, not facebooking, not studying, not watching telly with Mama etc, not helping with house chores, not college.

What, what, what? A reason maybe, a reason.

9 comments:

Auf Ali said...

I don't get it.

A break maybe?

Che Eduardo said...

Jane.. Jane...

Take care.

Che

kinteruvoid said...

fucking empty eh? i don't have any advice but breathe and calm down. waiting won't get anyone anywhere. you have to go out and get that missing piece, whatever it is.

Jumping Jane. said...

Thank you guys. Feel much better. Turns out I just need a day out, and conversations with my closed friends. Missing pieces are just every other puzzle to all of us. I was just letting my emotions speak, and not the rationals.

Emotional lebih kejap semalam. Hah. Thank you again. :)

pinknerd said...

haha, we're too alike sometimes. you'll feel better. it gets better.

Jumping Jane. said...

and jat, the ego just gets worse, kan? bloody egoistic fools we are.

didn't i say we're sexxxay that way (being alike and such)?

Wolf Is Black said...

:)

Z said...

I hate the feeling that you're missing something and have absolutely no fucking idea what it is, or maybe what they are.

Slowly it'll get to ya.

Jumping Jane. said...

Sangat terharu, thank you all again.