Yamagata and me,

Be be your love.
Rachael Yamagata.

If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I'm unreal
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel

Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything

Everything...

Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

Everything will be alright
If you just stay the night
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

I want to be your love, love, love



Just one question dear readers, can love overcome life?

Only because it involves me;

Good morrow dear loyal readers. Have you noticed the person next to your at the coffee shop when you're having you breakfast? Did you think that they're reading your life just by sipping your coffee? Or did you try to figure your neighbor's life?

Humans. Some think that they would thought of the worst when an issue revolves the people around. It is pretty much like the fundamental attribution error.

Sad thing is, this bloody error is part of our lives, whether we like it or not.

The question is, why?

Remember that I've told you about the lady who left her USD on the bed before she flew somewhere?

These fundamental attribution error, are happening everywhere. Maybe I noticed about it because this error is glued at the back of my mind. I mean, why do people tend to blame externally most of the time?

And when one blames internally, they'll go like; "Eh, mengaku pulak tu.."

Now, standing here lost in confusion, I'm asking for a light dear loyal readers, only because it involves me currently. Only because I need a way out. Selfish of me though. But what the heck.

She said, "You should know. You're taking psychology and all.."

Well dear aunt, if I knew, I would not take psychology. I'd maybe the God. Because they do not teach us. They only taught us that, humans do awkward things in life. The ones that affect others badly, but they'd run for dear life.

Now, can you please, get me the hell out of here?

I'm sorry.

"In the light of the sun,
Is there anyone?
Oh it has begun.
Oh dear, you look so lost,
Eyes are red
And tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed."
Augustana

Changing colors,

Here's the thing, I've been using my trusty mouse because I think that the laptop's mouse sensor is so melecehkan. But then I stopped using my mouse for well, a couple of weeks since I had no space for the mouse on the little table downstairs. And so it has been like that ever since, until today.

I transfered my laptop back to my room, with the wireless and all. Makes life easier don't you think? Then I decided to plug my mouse back. Oh how strange the feeling was.

You know, they said that changes are hard to adapt to. You get used to the stuffs you go through everyday. They become apart of your life. No matter how dear it was to you before, but after some time, you change your routine. Bit by bit, you know its a little hard to adapt to.

Maybe you would go phases like me, where you can't let the old routines go. But after some time the obsession of letting go outgrow the real feeling of lost. Then you would think that it is not so bad after all.

The funny thing is, you know you would want to go the same phases you went through before.
But when you have the chance to, you would have these weird feelings. A sense of awkwardness.

It's like meeting some old pals that you use to laugh and scream with. But several months later, when all of you have different lives, you miss that little shared interest. You tend to get lost for words for the next topic.

Sometimes, silence. Trying hard to dig inside your head for a common ground.

Hee. Changes.

Btw, what do all the people that sing "Everybody's changing" actually trying to say?

Okay, macam shallow je bunyi nya. Assignments, cheers!

When tomorrow is another day,

Good evening dear loyal readers. How has it been for you along the week? Did your boss notice the extra effort you have been putting? Did your peers notice your secret smile?


Let me ask you this little question that seem to be troubling me. Maybe I'm a little absurd, but well, you know.

Do you notice the stranger that you're talking to is elder than you? Like for example if you're ordering your meal at the mamak stall, or wherever. Do you speak at a proper manner? Or do you just put on your snob look, with your sour face and order?

I mean, we do tend to get a little carried away, especially when you're with your peers. Yes maybe the ones that worry which shoe is going to drop next.

Do you think that the neighbor next to you who ordered a Nescafe tarik thinks highly of himself than the elder who served him? Only because he works at a mamak stall with his dirty worn t-shirt and trousers (notice how rarely people use this word nowadays?).

But what happens when youths deal with these situations? Do they smile? Or give a puzzling look? Neutral or perhaps a little pinch of that superiority feeling?

Is it okay to direct an elder when in a job structure, you are somewhat superior? Especially with the firm direction tone. My B.M teacher would put it as, ayat suruhan.

So, I don't know, you tell me.

Ideally, I think that the world's such a great place to live in. And life's such a great journey. Why waste it?

But when you know the world is always ready to turn its back on you. You just know that tomorrow is yet another day.

Good or bad, no one has ever predicted it accurately.

Goodnight world.

"And if you're crazy, I don't care, you amaze me!" The Fratellis.

Some poem.

" .. . Kerana derita itu adalah dia,"

The above line is from a local poem, the one we read back in secondary school.

Nice meaning to it don't you think?