Live forever.

Normal.

But now no, the bigger question for trendy kids nowadays is abnormal. Unique. The trend to be normal has losses its value, and hence, the currency of being unique, and out of the norm is well, more "normal", more "outstanding", and such. But really, who could blame them? I mean sure, you can list down all those music genre hype, the physical layer of a soul, but you can't really tell what are they really like until you really hear them talk.

By talks, I'm not saying the usual, WHAT type of music you listen to, WHAT kind of country would you prefer and such. The bigger question here is, WHY. WHY you listen to the music you listen to? WHY do you think Andy Warhol had make the art revolution? WHY do you think that your faiths and beliefs are the right one for you? WHY, not WHAT. Because WHAT, one can simply say it. When you give them a bigger picture to paint with the WHY questions, you might just probably see their "uniqueness" or "abnormalities" fade out. Anybody can say, "Oh yeah, I enjoy the theater too".

But not just anyone can say, "Well, I think in performing arts, it all revolves around the actors on stage. Minus the fact that we are all actors on the stage, strutting and fretting our hours upon the stage, but that's a whole different story. In life we leave rooms for mistakes, we correct from wrongs, no? In movies, rooms for mistakes are more spacious than life, and what more, in theater..."

No?

But that's not the whole point. The point here is, the norms. The urge to be different, but yet normal.

Yes, kids today tend to be more unique, more up to date, more "larger than life". But I am deeply sorry to disappoint you, it is so much more than your usual urges for designer goods, the indie music you listen to, the indie labels you shop, the indie self-made labels. Or that over-rated mass communication, art or psychology-comm degrees. It is what boils in you.

I mean, why? Not what?

Humans are weird, they urge to be different but yet still normal.

You see, accompanied with my solitude in a rowdy crowd of the usual "weekend gateway", I was wondering.. Yes these people have families. Yes they have beautiful children. I mean isn't that the norm? People want beautiful children. People want cute, witty and adorable babies despite wanting to be different. This is probably one of the essences of wanting to be normal. I guess its also probably driven by the narcissistic generation.

But what happens when the child a mother carries for whole nine months have a little defect in their kariotip? Hence, could probably be a down's syndrome child, or have that extra X trait in the kariotip? Pardon me, please don't take this in a wrong turn, it's not like I look down upon these people, it's just well, the norms says it's not normal. So yes, what happens when your child turns out not as "beautiful" as you expected? Your infant does not have that nice mixture of your traits after all.

Or probably your child ends up being Autistic or something. I mean, yes Autistic kids are very beautiful, insightful and such. But growing in a narcissistic generation, it doesn't really help much now does it? You want to be creme de la creme. Or rather you have to be creme de la creme.

Situation 2. Suppose that you're hitched to the man of your life. Financially stable and all, what more can you ask for? Beautiful kids, a career, a nice house.. I mean, what more can a regular woman asks for? (Minus the whole philosophical aspect, i.e. Religion, Self-Actualization, etc.) That's what a normal circle of life should be. Infancy, childhood, adolescence, young adult, adult.. Marry, work, kids. That's probably the foundation, and normal route in life. But tell me, what happen if out of the blue, your normal life crumbles?

Your husband met a tragic accident, losses almost all of his capabilities to support your family. Basically malfunction. Do you stay and be with you dear man of your life, or do you feel lonely when the time comes? Be strong and stay, or be strong and leave? The urge to stay for family and husband or leave for self?

Or what if on your 12th wedding anniversary, right before the big dinner with your lovely spouse, the morning you were diagnosed with the second stage of cancer? It's not normal now is it? You question your doings in life. You've been an acceptable citizen, you perform your prayers now and then, you don't vote or side a corrupted politician, but you can't lead that normal route of life after all.

What happens if your life route changes out of the norm?

Conversations that I usually experience are the usual WHAT. But WHY? Ah, that takes an intellectually provoked extinct being of the testosterone driven being. Yes, just talking can be fun. But you know..

Yes Pink, mission failed. Not a single word, a glance even. Tak nampak bayang pun lah basically. Ha ha.

"Maybe I will never be, all the things that I want to be. But now is not the time to cry, now is the time to find out why. I think you're the same as me, we see things they'll never see.

You and I are gonna live forever."
Live forever, O.

Because RPK made me thought:

Christian is based on the Trinity concept. Three different entities, but one substance.

The Government is based on a trio concept. Three different bodies: Legislature, Executive and Judicial and they have one foundation: politics.

Is it right? Or the Judicial branch is an independent branch? Or they claim to be. Like the United Nation? Ah, questions questions.

Traffic,

I have this problem, I want to write, yes. But I'm so damn malas and it seems so nice to lie down and fall asleep.

Nonetheless, I am going to write because it has been a good day, wait let me rephrase that; a one hell of a great day. From morning which last term finals' results were the highlight, to afternoon ehem, hanging out with my tiny friend companied by talks, and more talks. And when darkness comes, it was Lee Chong Wei who made it to Badminton Finals in Olympics. I love LCW! :)

So basically, I was watching the Olympics game throughout the week because I have nothing better to do and yes watching talented athletes jumping, swirling with their er beautiful bodies? Eye candy sahaja. And Allah S.W.T would punish me for my sins, Alhamdulillah it is not during Ramadhan. Ha ha, joke dear readers.

"The human mind is our greatest enemy/friend"

It is like approaching your glass, half-empty or half-full. You see, yes your mind could be the biggest threat, provided if you listen much to your mind.

Philosophers have been debating about this ancient issue on mind-body as they can't really prove what is the Mind. It is not exactly situated in your brain now does it? Because the human brain is consist of the nervous system and all that scientific, physical components. Yes, the brain can be very much proven by all these physical stuffs. Through experiments and all.

But the mind? Ah, the mind. It controls your beliefs, perceptions, desires and the like. So basically the mind is very much abstract and vague. I mean, how else can you prove the existence of your mind? What and where exactly is your mind? It is almost like trying to prove the existence of God - minus the dandy, supernatural miracles.

Why then is your own mind can be your greatest enemy?

You see, when I was sitting for my PMR I didn't want to be near my closed friends listening to them reading and questioning each other on whatever possible facts they could remember. Tell you the truth, it kills me. Let's put it this way, I was battling with my mind, it is very hard to maintain that mind stability. One second it can bring you on top of the world saying you can mighty do it, but the next second, it might say, don't be too over-confident, because you might just fall. So tell me, where the hell should I stand then?

Then SPM came, this was easier than I thought - minus the day before B.M papers start. I was freaking myself out. "I can't bloody do B.M and Komsas! Shit! What the hell I am suppose to memorize again?" The rest went through quite well as I occupied myself with my trusty reference books yang penuh dengan highlights dan contengan dan koyak sana-sini. God I miss SPM.

Point here is that, to maintain your mind stability is the greatest strength one can achieve. I mean, it takes a whole lot of energy to make sure your mind does not pull you down in the rut or does not push you waaay on top of the world. Where's the sense in that? Bak kata Rasulullah S.A.W; "live in moderate".

Despite watching men in their beautiful bodies curving and swirling,punching the air of joyous glory; I thought to myself, it takes more than their well-skilled and well-versed routine techniques. These men (and female athletes) have to have a bloody hell of a strong mind!

We're not talking about PMR or SPM here friend. We're talking about the Olympics! Do you have any idea how hard it is to get to the Olympics? And being humans, that particular thought could crumble one down. You see, you sit there after you have done your part. Watch other athletes strut and fret their routines, and you thought to yourself, this person is kinda good. Oh and guess what? So is the next few. And then you see the rankings: You are below the top 10.

And then the next athlete fell, disrupting his routine. But he got up, to finish his routine anyway. Determination. But what can you really tell what is going on his mind? He might just think, "I started it, I have to finish it" - this my friend, is not only a positive statement, it can also be a negative one. Because you see, he might just want to finish it, just for the sake of finishing it.

Catch my drift?

In Individual Gymnastics, all I see is that heated mind-raging battle. One athlete falls, the crowd cheered for encouragement. Other athletes might feel confident and think, "oh good, my chances are getting higher" or he could also think, "oh shitt! what if I do the same thing?". You see.

And the other thing that ached me was when the crowd was cheering for the Chinese athlete whom by the way won gold when the other foreigner athletes were reciting their routine, I wonder, does that gymnast who is reciting his routine hear the ballistic, outrageous cheer for that Chinese gymnast? And did that roaring cheer kill that particular performing gymnast's focus and hence, the mental stability?

If I were one of these athletes trying to make my country proud, I would just close my eyes and listen to my iPod and only open my eyes when I feel confident enough. I don't want to disrupt my mind! Think I would give good advices like above if I was a Sports Psychologist? HA HA. Not. Bayar mahal-mahal, psikologis aku cakap, dengar ipod tutup mata. Bodoh tak bodoh?

Mental stability dear reader, is one of the thing we should be aiming for.

Not really diving beneath the surface,

Watching yummy male swimmers in their trunks, diving are well, seducing? Purr! Ha ha. Oh Blake A_____ from The Great Britain. Oh my god, very cute and young. But of course, like most, they don't come in packages. He had a very pleasant look, but he wasn't that good of a diver. But hey, good enough to make it to the Olympics!

So anyway, I'm not going to talk bull on their good looks, tight abs and all that.

China won the synchronize diving.

China won, beating the United States of America who are the leading divers as what the commentator had said. And correct me if I'm wrong, China won Gold at Athens four years back.

Watching them from the upper most platform, the norm is one of the team member would said some sort of an agreement, "Ready? 1..2..3.. JUMP!" or "Uno Duo Tres.. Jump!" and of they go, flipping, circling, and splassshhhh! But then after accommodating to the norm, ranks, then I realized China was leading, rank 1 - since the beginning.

I didn't watch from the beginning, so basically it took time to absorb the information. And I knew I had to see how good is the Chinese duo. And then it was their turn, the final jump and they were one of the last to dive.

Then the most beautiful thing happened, if I'm not mistaken, I heard two voices counting at once. Equality, team, synchronize.

And right then, I knew I had some sort of a proof to the theory I drew in my head minutes earlier on why the Chinese divers are leading.

China is a collectivist country.

P/S: WTH is "mnrk" in BM? Apparently its "menarik". WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE? Dah ada papan kekunci, taip je ah, nak pendek-pendek lagi. RETARDED ke apa?

!@#$%&()_

DEAR PHONY,

"RUDICILOUS" is spelled RIDICULOUS.

AND, GET THE BLOODY PICTURE.

P/S: I need a Ben, brains and NOT a phony.